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Temptation

Temptation


I am tempted by the sweet smell of wine
By it's gentle taste caressing my mouth
To feel again, it embracing my mind
Allowing me to escape from all that is mine

I am tempted, by the harsh smoke of a cigar
By it's deep, abundant taste that fills me inside
To feel again, the sweetest trace that's left
The warmth that gives me life from afar.

I am tempted by her, and oh, her sweet eyes
Begging me to bring her with me, in my arms
By her soft voice whispering in my ears
To lose myself in her for all the coming years.

And yet, the ice melts on the table
As it awaits me to pour the drink in my cup.
And yet, the cigar is no longer able
To fill my lungs with it's sweet taste

And her. She's gone. Too far to reach
Too far to feel her soft speech
Too far to feel her embrace
To far to remember her face.


I am tempted, by the loneliness ahead
To end my life again, for maybe when I'm dead
That caress of hers won't be that far
And I'll finally smoke that amazing cigar
Or I'll drink my wine without having to hide
Without feeling dead like I am now inside





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